Josie

10/21/2024

My sister died today. I don’t know what to do. I’m not very good with processing these things. Emotionally, I’m not right. I know that my reactions to death are very logical, and that’s a problem. Logic-oriented I mean; I struggle hard with emotional responses. I was told over dinner. I had just finished up chicken alfredo and sat down with my girlfriend to watch Merlin. Bruce called me at exactly 8:30, and I could immediately tell something was wrong. We only spoke for about a minute. Patrick was told. Nick and Kathy would be told next, Kathy first. He said it was around 5:30. I don’t know about Erika. I'm not hungry.

I don’t know what to write. I only knew Josie for a short time. I think it’s been less than 4 years. I can’t remember how old she was. I think she was 19. I can’t remember. I just saw her and Bruce at the Renaissance Festival on Saturday October 19th. My car was towed the night before. We spoke for a few minutes and continued exploring before separating. Her and Bruce, and Me, Cassie, and Joseph. They said they would be headed towards the joust at around 2:15, the same time that we were talking, and I thought they were odd because it was going to start at 3:00. We had to stand on the right side because it was packed like always. Joe said it was his favorite part of his first festival. I saw Josie and Bruce in the center-right bleachers and pointed them out to Cassie. They had front row seats. Bruce told me at breakfast the next day that he wanted to get her more involved next year. Help her make a costume. She had her hair in a ponytail, and I think she was wearing a light jacket in black. Joe told Cassie that she talked funny. I cant remember anything she said. I hope she made fun of my awful costume.

She hadn’t been going to breakfast lately. She was the only other person to come reliably since David had a few job shakeups. She made it a lot easier at breakfast. Sometimes I don’t want to go.I think im done typing.